Confidence

Isn't it strange how you can listen so a song and suddenly it can mean something completely different to what it used to mean?

I've been listening to Pro Green's At your inconvenience album. It has a song on there that always empowers me- D>P>M>O ( don't piss me off) which makes me feel like i can conquer anything.
It also has a song that used to mean something- Trouble. When i listened to it today I realised that maybe I was the troublesome one, not because i am a bad person but because of my past i am troubled. All I know is that in the future I'm not going to be the troubled one (not that I'm looking to date a twat either!!).

I've had some confidence boosts this weeks from people i barely know, to people I never expected it from. I've also had numerous people walk away from my life because they couldn't be the friend that I actually needed. It's sad because I've known them for years but if they don't want to treat me properly then that's there loss not mine. My family have even seemed to rally round in the most surprising way. A text from my brother who I barely speak to. One that made me cry when I first read it. It helped me realise that usually I am the one that people turn to for advise and for help. But unfortunately that also means that they aren't very good at giving advise just as much as I'm not very good at taking it!

Well as part of my moving on and making new friends, I had best go and get ready for tonight! A meal with the BMF's- will the trainer tell me off for my choice of food? ha ha!



Do you think I should try to build bridges with friends? or just walk away?

SP