Sooo i've had an eventful weekend. I'm not going to go into details because i'm pretty embarrassed about the way I behaved. All I will say is that me and Bernard clearly aren't ready to be pals yet as i'm still pretty angry at him.
He's an ace person, who can make me laugh at the stupid stuff he does and his cheesy face but sometimes I really want to kick his lovely ass! I've done a bit of soul searching and chilled out a lot since wanting to kick his ass, and realised that I still feel let down after everything that happened.
An inner rage came over me and typically i'm not an angry person, - I can rant and rage with the best of them but i'm not really an aggressive person, I would much rather bottle it all up or run away from it.
I'm going to speak to my therapist about the anger issue, and try and resolve it. I just want to point out that I wasnt violent before anyone gets that impression! Maybe then me and the Bernster can be pals!
I slept all day and night last night which must have meant that i needed it!
A calmer SP
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